Thursday, September 30, 2004
studying..
hey dear, i'm so stressed up right now!!! i'm at the last stack of notes, which consists of 6 notes n i'm only halfway thru the 2nd. and it's 10.30 already! boohoooo.
anyway, while i was studying just now, i suddenly thought of the times in the past, when i always cry to u when i am stressed cos of studying or when i get lousy results.. haha, realised i'm such a small little girl, always crying to u, wonder if u every felt irritated then?
i rely on u alot, don't i? i dont know if it's good or bad, but at least i'm happy that i can rely on u, hehe.. i gotta get back to studying my dear, good luck for ur bio test today, u're my smartest darling! muack.
michie-
--7:32 AM--
Thursday, September 23, 2004
hey dearie..
read the love letter/testimonial u wrote for me many many times, i guess it's the longest u've ever written, haha.. Firstly, don't feel guilty for teaching me naughty things, cos sooner or later, i'll learn abt it myself.. moreover our hormones are raging, haha, so yar, such things will come naturally isnt it? i'm glad we're not having rocky times like in sec2 and sec3 already, those times were difficult for me, but then it's true that sunshine comes after the rain yeah? cos we're so sweet together now..
Actually, i dont know what a mature relationship really is like.. but i guess, it's one which we trust and be honest with each other, get comfort from each other, and it's not a relationship which the the two of us must meet everyday, get wad i mean? it's like even though we're far apart, we still noe that we'll be in each other's mind. Although we always do childish things together, like making faces on the webcam, but i still do think that our relationship can be counted as mature.. I've seen many immature relationships around me,i dont like people who don't treasure relationships seriously, but i didnt say anything to them la, i just keep quiet.. I've got a classmate, her boyfriend is the vice president of student council in our school, and she worries and brood when he doesnt have time to accompany her cos he's very busy, i think that's very unfair to the guy, moreover they know each other for less then 3 mths n they go into a relationship, do u think it's possible?
Yes dear, your heart is hard to satisfy, and difficult to understand.. But i'll nv give up, i hope u wont mind my slow progress, and give me more chances, will you? I really wanna know more abt you, and be the first person who really knows you well, cos you're the person i really treasure and u mean the world to me.. i know there are times when u felt that i wouldnt let u into my heart, wouldnt tell u abt my problems, i dont know wad's the reason of my behaviour dearie, sometimes i'll just run away from the problems and don't wanna think about it, don't wanna let another person worry abt it.. but i do really wanna let u take my hand and let u into my heart and let u accompany me through difficult n good times..
And u know, until now, i still couldnt believe the love and attention i'm getting for you.. it's like, to good to be true, really, u seems so interested and attracted to me, u treat me so nicely n sweetly like i'm a princess, though i'm not really that good to deserve such treatment for you.. the only thing in my life that is too good to be true is your love for me.. that's why, i feel really insecure at times, i'm afraid that one day i wake up and suddenly all the love i'm getting are gone.. Please dont misuderstand dear, this insecurity i'm experiencing is not cos of me not trusting u or whatsoever, it's just a barrier in my heart..
Didnt know u like this thing i made for you so much till u almost tear, i watched u on the webcam while u were looking at this website, not really much expression on ur face, thought u didnt really like it..glad u do like it=D i'm happy when i can make u happy, cos u being happy makes me happy too, haha.. Dear, i thought u say i ain't shi wen enough? haha, and i thought u dont like it when i act like a da xiao jie... but i do hope i'm really living up to ur expectations of a good girlfriend..
Actually, are u upset with me for always forgetting to naughty with u? please forgive me, cos u noe ah, girls are not horny all the time, plus i've been busy studying and tired everyday, so i'll forget abt being naughty.. u do understand, right darling? muacks.
i'm listening to the soundtrack u sent me now.. didnt expect you to remember that i like this soundtrack, cos you're always so absent-minded, haha.. i was really touched and surprised when u told me u have downloaded the whole soundtrack to send me.. i remember hearing a very nice song in the movie, but i cant seem to find the song in the soundtrack, haha.. it's the song the guy is singing when he was on the boat driving and crying when he was leaving the country..
Lastly, wanna tell u to study hard, just like what i'm doing now.. haha, i believe we can work hard together, and achieve good results together, that'll be really really wonderful, i'm looking forward to it.. that's wad a mature couple shd do isnt it? achieve greater heights together.. love u.
michie-
--6:39 PM--
Monday, September 20, 2004
Reasons I Love You
okie..since i've just turned seventeen, i'm going to write 17 reasons wad or why i like and love you dearie..here it goes.. (please note that they are not in order of merit)
1. my dear is macho and handsome and attractive, u mesmerise me darling..
2. you're mature and sensible, always knowing when to be serious and do the right things, i look up to u.
3. you'll accompany to eat again when i haven eaten and u've already eaten, i'll always say i wun eat if u dun accompany me and u'll give in eventually, hehe.
4. you're a filial son, u're respectful towards ur parents or grandparents or great grandmother, i am proud of u and i should learn from you abt this.
5. you always know how to make me smile when i'm feeling down and you're the only person in this world who knows how to console me. and u also encourages me when things go wrong or when work is stressful.
6. you're constantly naughty, adding some spice and excitement into our relationship, haha..
7. love the way u hug me tightly into ur arms especially when i'm crying, the sense of security is overwhelming.
8. the way u sa jiao and be like a small boy in front of me, and i know, it's only in front of me then u'll show that child-like side of you.
9. u have superb leadership qualities, perhaps you'll be the CEO of some big company in the future.
10. like the way u always say i'm beautiful, although i'm know i'm really not that pretty, but beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, isn't it? and u like to say i have beautiful eyes while looking deeply into my eyes, it'll make me blush u know..
11. how we snuggle close to each other while we're watching movie and how u always hold my hands close to ur chest or kissing my hand as if i'm a queen..
12. love the way u place my hands inside ur shirt when i tell u i'm cold, and giving me a chance for my hands to be naughty under ur shirt, hehe..
13. you always not alerting me when i walk the wrong way and you'll be standing there laughing at me (usually accompanied by joshua) when i realised i walked the wrong direction.
14. really like it when we fall asleep together on the same bed, it's so loving...
15. you always know what clothes suit me best, i think u know it better than i do..
16. u always admit when u lied to me, though they're usually white lies, but still, thanks for being honest by admitting, but dun lie next time k?
17. You confide in me, giving me a chance to know u better and tell me how u feel, giving me a chance to understand u better..
of course, there are more reasons darling, i think it'll be the next century by the time i list all of them down.. in summary,
I LOVE YOU.
michie-
--7:35 AM--
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Happy Third Year Anniversary!
hey dearie, hope u'll like what i've done.
haha, actually i dont really know what to say cos we seldom talked much about our anniversaries, but still, it's a special day because three years is a longgg time. 3 years is equals to 1095 days, 26280 hours, 1576800 minutes and 94608000 seconds.
well, just wanna tell you i'm loving you more each day, and though we're miles apart, i still can feel you love care and concern for me.. and i thank you for all the efforts u put in to make me happy when i'm down, encourage me when i have lots of work to do and making my birthday special. and for all the times u had tolerated my childishness and stubborness for the 3 years, u're great dearie.
i know u feel lonely and lost at times over there in US, but my heart is always with you, you know u can turn to me everytime you want, right? i can't do much for you darling, cant wash up for u, cant cook for u, cant help u gai bei when u're sleeping, but all i can is to love you and care for you, and make u feel like you're the happiest and luckiest guy on earth. i love you.
michie-
--9:52 AM--
