Wednesday, February 21, 2007
it has been a year since the last post. nobody comes here, even i myself dont. so much so much has happened for the past year. i guess everything has came to an end, after 5 years and 5 months, from i was 14, till i'm almost 20. all that happened in these 5 years, shall always be kept in a deep part of my heart and mind. was reading my yahoo mails, the whole mailbox was filled with your mails, mails that u sent for the last 5 years, not one did i deleted it. it was a private mailbox just for you. i guess i was a happy girl in the past, i already kinda forgot how that kind of happiness feels like already. you wrote sweet mails to me, you tell me about your life and your problems, emails an msn was such an important part of our relationship due to the distance. i also went to that webpage u set up for me. surprisingly, it's still there. i hope it stays there forever. i read what you wrote, couldn't believe i was so important in your life in the past, i still do remember how i felt when i first read that website. i cried, but it wasnt tears of sadness.
today i walked past paradiz centre. i pass by there quite often, and i always try not to think of you. nowadays i try not to think of you, because everytime i think of you, i feel a stab in my heart. i remember i'll always meet you near your house, and it's always me waiting for you. i remember we went to the prata shop for a few times, i remember me going up to your house, sleeping like a dead log while you watched soccer.
i have already tried my best, i gave my all in this relationship. i pressed on despite all the disappointments. i treat you the best i could. i do everything for you with all my sincerity. i never treat another person as well as i did to you. i was willing to do anything just for you. but too bad, i've learnt that you dont always reap what you sow. perhaps you dont realise how i am to you, perhaps what i thought was my best wasnt good enough at all to you, perhaps our relationship wasn't strong enough to withstand the test of distance, perhaps i dont mean that much to you that i thought i was. whatever it is, i know it's time to move on. i've told myself that many times in the past, but this time, it's really the time to move on. i wouldnt want to look back anymore. people grow up, people change, people go. i hope there will be this day to come which i can think of you, but not feel all the sorrows i'm feeling now anymore.
michie-
--11:40 AM--
Monday, February 06, 2006
wil
i'm not sure, but i think i miss you.
michie-
--8:14 AM--
Thursday, June 16, 2005
what can i say? dashing! u made my heart skipped.
this will be my all time favourite photo from now on.=D haha!!
michie-
--8:42 AM--
Saturday, June 04, 2005
hello! do u still remember this website existed? haha.
you know, i think June is my lucky month. Last year's juen i had you by my side for one whole month. This year june, I've you suddenly showing so much interest in me. I thought it'll never happen again.
i dont know, sometimes it feels like i'm dreaming, that i'm gonna wake up and realise it's all a dream. i've became a very insecure person. i dont know what to expect, i dont know what will happen tomorrow, very often i'm scared...but i'm just so glad i've you.
you made me feel like the happiest girl living when i have you asking me "are u alright?" countless times after i go drinking. i have you to tell me you wont bully even when the whole world does. i have u to tell me "your smile is a consolation to me" when i start to tear. little things you say mean alot to me. what more can i expect? the more i think of it..the more it feels like a dream..do u think i'm dreaming? i've havent felt like this for a very long time..
and thanks for letting me be the only person you can open up and talk to, i remember last time you dont really like to confide in me, you say i dont understand you. do you think i understand you now?
another thing is, i see you are working very hard for your finals. please dont over work yourself. ok? and please tell me if i'm distracting you doing your work. i want you to pass with flying colours ok!! haha
u know, i really cant settle down to study. please help me wil. i dont know what i should do. everytime i see my notes, i'll think how much i need to study, den i'll be very...sian..and start to do anything other than studying. i feel worried, but i cant study. hai, last time i wasnt like this, i feel like an idiot. i'm very afriad i'll do badly but i cant bring myself to study. everybody has high expectations from me. it's like, the more stress i feel, the more i try to get away from it..is this an illness? =(
p/s: can i have a small favour from you? remember the website u made about me?( if u forget, refer to the link at the right hand side. ) pls update it. just a little update will do?
michie-
--9:41 AM--
Monday, January 03, 2005
i love you =)
michie-
--9:05 AM--
Monday, December 20, 2004
finally blogger is working!! if u realise, the 2 previous entries were posted so long ago and they only appear now.. anyway, dont u know my favourite colour is purple?? i'm so surprised u didnt noe darling.. i like purple! haha. nvm, now u noe right?
okie i'm chatting with u at another window and typing this for u to see here... u're not sleeping for tonight u say.. poor dearie.. nx time really cant last minute work le.. alright? u've got friday, sat and whole of sunday to study right? (i'm trying to sound fierce here)
okie good luck sugary honey for ur music exam. love u love u love u.
michie-
--6:35 AM--
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
testing
michie-
--7:38 AM--
