Thursday, September 23, 2004
hey dearie..
read the love letter/testimonial u wrote for me many many times, i guess it's the longest u've ever written, haha.. Firstly, don't feel guilty for teaching me naughty things, cos sooner or later, i'll learn abt it myself.. moreover our hormones are raging, haha, so yar, such things will come naturally isnt it? i'm glad we're not having rocky times like in sec2 and sec3 already, those times were difficult for me, but then it's true that sunshine comes after the rain yeah? cos we're so sweet together now..
Actually, i dont know what a mature relationship really is like.. but i guess, it's one which we trust and be honest with each other, get comfort from each other, and it's not a relationship which the the two of us must meet everyday, get wad i mean? it's like even though we're far apart, we still noe that we'll be in each other's mind. Although we always do childish things together, like making faces on the webcam, but i still do think that our relationship can be counted as mature.. I've seen many immature relationships around me,i dont like people who don't treasure relationships seriously, but i didnt say anything to them la, i just keep quiet.. I've got a classmate, her boyfriend is the vice president of student council in our school, and she worries and brood when he doesnt have time to accompany her cos he's very busy, i think that's very unfair to the guy, moreover they know each other for less then 3 mths n they go into a relationship, do u think it's possible?
Yes dear, your heart is hard to satisfy, and difficult to understand.. But i'll nv give up, i hope u wont mind my slow progress, and give me more chances, will you? I really wanna know more abt you, and be the first person who really knows you well, cos you're the person i really treasure and u mean the world to me.. i know there are times when u felt that i wouldnt let u into my heart, wouldnt tell u abt my problems, i dont know wad's the reason of my behaviour dearie, sometimes i'll just run away from the problems and don't wanna think about it, don't wanna let another person worry abt it.. but i do really wanna let u take my hand and let u into my heart and let u accompany me through difficult n good times..
And u know, until now, i still couldnt believe the love and attention i'm getting for you.. it's like, to good to be true, really, u seems so interested and attracted to me, u treat me so nicely n sweetly like i'm a princess, though i'm not really that good to deserve such treatment for you.. the only thing in my life that is too good to be true is your love for me.. that's why, i feel really insecure at times, i'm afraid that one day i wake up and suddenly all the love i'm getting are gone.. Please dont misuderstand dear, this insecurity i'm experiencing is not cos of me not trusting u or whatsoever, it's just a barrier in my heart..
Didnt know u like this thing i made for you so much till u almost tear, i watched u on the webcam while u were looking at this website, not really much expression on ur face, thought u didnt really like it..glad u do like it=D i'm happy when i can make u happy, cos u being happy makes me happy too, haha.. Dear, i thought u say i ain't shi wen enough? haha, and i thought u dont like it when i act like a da xiao jie... but i do hope i'm really living up to ur expectations of a good girlfriend..
Actually, are u upset with me for always forgetting to naughty with u? please forgive me, cos u noe ah, girls are not horny all the time, plus i've been busy studying and tired everyday, so i'll forget abt being naughty.. u do understand, right darling? muacks.
i'm listening to the soundtrack u sent me now.. didnt expect you to remember that i like this soundtrack, cos you're always so absent-minded, haha.. i was really touched and surprised when u told me u have downloaded the whole soundtrack to send me.. i remember hearing a very nice song in the movie, but i cant seem to find the song in the soundtrack, haha.. it's the song the guy is singing when he was on the boat driving and crying when he was leaving the country..
Lastly, wanna tell u to study hard, just like what i'm doing now.. haha, i believe we can work hard together, and achieve good results together, that'll be really really wonderful, i'm looking forward to it.. that's wad a mature couple shd do isnt it? achieve greater heights together.. love u.
michie-
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