i've been thinking, wad's being geniunely happy? i really dont know how is it to be geniunely happy.. sometimes i may be happy, but it's short lived, the happiness tones down easily n i'll be down back to earth. it's no real, at the end of the day i'll still be unhappy.. and of cos there are times when i noe i'm definitely not happy, but i gotta act like i am, that is of cos, not geniune happiness.
most of the time when i see u online, i'm happy, i think that's being happy geniunely. though there are times there's other things getting me down too, but i'll still show u my happy face, i dont mind actually, cos i noe it's tough trying to counter-attack all my unhapiness all the time..
i dont know if u know what i'm talking abt. i'm confused too myself. i nv had this problem before, i never had to think whether i'm truly happy in the past. happy means happy, it used to be like this.. i'm always jovial, i had everything i wanted in the past i guess, i always get what i wanted. moreover u're by my side, it's just something so precious. but things aren't the same anymore, i hate when things change and happen. i feel that my life has changed, i dont know if i have changed too. i really feel so lost dear. i cant see the light at the end of this dark tunnel, i cant see anything.
show me ur hand and take me by the hand, walk and lead me down this dark tunnel. will you?
michie-
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